ridiculous. awkward. paranoid. obsessive (to mello). john ohh.
likes innuendos. you can't read me easily like a book. koolness = me. halfway to hell because of my perverted mind.
*gasps! MELLOGASM*
drawing's an addiction. mangas are fun. skinny jeans are where it's at. fo' life.
there's so much more to say. peace-a-late bro-ha
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IDGAF
Posted on / Posted at 6:03 PM
HOAAA man!! This week FTW!! This is sooo good :D hahhaa, cause didn't get to go to school for 2 days, and didn't stay for BIC for 2 days, today, school ends early.. woohoo.. I get to watch Fullmetal and BLEACH!! :D But it turned out wrong. I didnt watch them, cause i'm lazy. Well, at least i get the time to spend on the internet. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!! Again, me and my sister bought mangas o,o Kuroshitsuji and Bleach Bakuman is good, bakuman's really good. Hey hey hey i'm also starting to like Suicide Silence and Breathe Carolina. Yes, read my list from the previous post if you have to. Also, i got you a playlist, the song is good, rite? (: Current mood:  Labels: random |
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!@#$%
Posted on Friday, February 26, 2010 / Posted at 8:34 PM
Gimana cara baca judul entry kali ini?? Anak-anak, sudah lama saya ga make bahasa indonesia buat post entry xD ini sih biar si AULIA'MUTMUT' bisa baca. hwakakakaa.. Eh, tapi mau ngomongin apa ga tau =,= Barusan aja ngeupdate isi hp.. jadinya hp low battery. damnit damnit damnit. Pagi ini pas aku bantu mama buat sarapan, kami kan becanda becanda gitu (biasa, ibu anak) .. terus mama ngusulin gimana kalo aku dan mbak dea manggil mama dan papa jadi bunda dan ayah?? Aku sih setuju soalnya lebih formil. TETAPI, mbak dea TIDAK SETUJU!! Mengapa? kalo menurut teori saya, mbak dea tidak setuju gara-gara Tony Montana (idolanya) memanggil ibunya sendiri dengan sebutan 'mama'. alay banget sih.. padahal bagus tuh bunda-ayah. Tapi agak aneh juga kali ya, sudah terbiasa dengan mama-papa. O ada satu lagi.. Gini nih, besok bagi rapot bulanan, aku ga tau hasilnya gimana. Aku ga mau tau juga :3 Takut mamaa!! Eh salah, takut bundaa!! Besok juga ada PR bahasa indonesia disuruh buat/salin cerpen, nanti dibacakan di depan kelas dan cari unsur intrinsik nya (?) nah, aku dari tadi bukannya ngerjain malah maen internet terus nonton animax. I don't know why but I like wasting my time like this, I know it's wrong, but so wrong it's so right. Tolong perbaiki saya. GANTI PP @ FACEBOOK, fellas!!! aah puas dah, perasaan kalo make gbr Sasuke di komentarin melulu. Sekarang make foto saya sendiri dipuji-puji *blush* hahahahahaha.. malu dah. Mau belajar dulu, dahh. Current mood:  mabukLabels: random |
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hohoho
Posted on / Posted at 2:13 PM
These eyes, they see more than you know. We're all dressed in our best so take it or leave it Heeeeyyy imma try new bands later. Yeh i have the list 01. Suicide Silence02. Breathe Carolina 03. Pierce The Veil 04. Scary Kids Scaring Kids 05. Attack Attack 06. You Me At Six 07. Atreyu 08. Avenged Sevenfold 09. Cobra Starship 10. A Day To Remember Labels: random |
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v3nom
Posted on Thursday, February 25, 2010 / Posted at 7:04 PM
hello there kiddo :D i haven't post anything for a while. cause i'm grounded. and and and today supposed to be a good day cause tomorrow school's out. woohoo :D i'm starting to watch animax wif sister. hell yea i kind of like bleach, fullmetal alchemist, samurai champloo. i can't wait for k-on! wahahhahaaaa i'm an anime crazy your ass. i'm just watching it's not an obsession. Ohh, there's nothing new in my iPod, i need a new song D: i'm dyinggg.. What about suicide silence? Ever heard of it? Is it good? Imma try them on.. new posts coming soon. Hmm... i haven't stop liking Mello until nao. I always thinks of mello 24/7. I can't imagine if Mello's real. :3 He's so great. He's a hero (haha). I adores him. And he's a man not a woman (curse you for calling him pretty). And Shore, he's just an OC, but still.. I like drawing Shore it's so easy :D Labels: random |
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This day
Posted on Sunday, February 21, 2010 / Posted at 10:46 PM
I think this day is pretty bad. Cause I went to the mall, and sacrificed my time for these. These are just a waste of time. I didn't get what i was looking for and i'm really bored there. This day would be better if i just spend the day relaxing and studying at home peacefully... -_____- oh god... At least i started reading kuroshitsuji and bleach :DD pretty good, imma watch bleach later on animax.  Labels: random |
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Guess what?
Posted on / Posted at 11:46 AM
Everyone's beautiful until you look under the mask And i realized that this boy is not friendly. How disappointing, cause i always consider him as a friend. Indones. Even though my sister doesn't like him i always talked nice to him. But now he's really mean and talking rude. His attitude disgusts me. Arrogant. Guess when his friends left him doesn't change him a bit, huh? BMTH's song Sleep with one eye open fits perfectly with this situation. He's a friend of mine but i felt like he's using me and left just like that. I just wanna be his friend, that's all. I just wanna be how it used to be. Like these lyrics i quoted from the song: you took what you wanted and left, like locusts but now you sold our friendship, you're on your fucking own If I had it my way I'd slit your throat with the knife you left in my back everything will fall at your feet - you got hell to pay and you better fucking bow down to me you better beg for mercy get on your fucking knees and cry me a fucking river |
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Just..
Posted on Saturday, February 20, 2010 / Posted at 8:32 PM
Manage me, I'm a mess Urghh.. so, it's Saturday that means mum allowed us to do whatever we want. And there are lots of time i can waste for fun. Today, eh.. Today there are 3 test. Math, Chemistry, Biology. I hope my score is good :D I had studied last night!! I studiedd!!! maaann..... I miss browsing the internet, yet get bored at the same time. There's nothing new, really.. Everytime I get on the internet, I only visit facebook, blogskins, blogger, myspace, capslock dn, yadda yadda yadaaaahs. Oh and theres something new!! Tian-san called me a shit. Whatthefuckwasthat!!? I feel so irritated.. She said she was just joking, Near's ass. HAH!! Actually, i'm not that irritated, and i'm not that serious about getting mad. i'm just pretending to be mad. hahhahaa.. i NEVER get really angry at my dear Tian-san.. xD Her face looks funny so i always wanna laugh. lol~nothing personal. Got a new pic of myself, wished i could upload it to facebook but i do not want to use facebook anymore. Facebook=mainstream=not cool. wahahhahaa.. jk jk. Im on fb sometimes IF i wanna talk to someone.  Labels: random |
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Accomplished
Posted on / Posted at 7:44 PM
Hello there, boys and girls. Im just gonna tell ya that my problem is solved. And i'm starting to dislike my math teacher. I'm promising to myself that ill work harder at studying and ill not give up. Stupid words from him wont fucking bring me down. I also cried today at school, haha. I cnt take it anymore, ive kept these pains far too long.. And im just crying that out so i can feel alright. Srry theres not much to say, cuz im posting this from my phone :P
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Okay I Believe You But My Tommy Gun Don't - Brand New
Posted on Tuesday, February 16, 2010 / Posted at 11:09 PM
I am heaven sent,Don't you dare forget. I am all you've ever wanted, What all the other boys all promised. Sorry I told. I just needed you to know. I think in decimals and dollars. I am the cause to all your problems, Shelter from cold. we are never alone. Coordinate brain and mouth. Then ask me whats it like to have Myself so figured out. I wish I knew.. I hope this song starts a craze. The kind of song that ignites the airwaves. The kind of song that makes people glad To be where they are, With whoever they're there with. This is war. Every line is about, Who I don't wanna write about anymore. Hope you come down with something They can't diagnose, don't have the cure for. Holding on to your grudge. Oh its so hard to have someone to love. And keeping quiet is hard. Cause you cant keep a secret If it never was a secret to start. At least pretend you didn't wanna get caught.. We're concentrating on falling apart. We were contenders, we're throwing the fight But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, in us. Oh, we're so c-c-c-c-c-controversial. We are entirely smooth. We admit to the truth, We are the best at what we do. And these are the words you wish you wrote down. This is the way you wish your voice sounds, Handsome and smart. Oh my tongue's the only muscle on my body That works harder than my heart. And its all from watching TV, And from speeding up my breathing. Wouldn't stop if I could. Oh it hurts to be this good. You're holding on to your grudge. Oh it hurts to always have to be honest With the one that you love. Oh, so let it go.. We're concentrating on falling apart. We were contenders, we're throwing the fight But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe. We're concentrating on falling apart. We were contenders, we're throwing the fight But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, in us. This is the grace that only we can bestow. This is the price you pay for loss of control. This is the break in the bend, This is the closest of calls. This is the reason your alone, This is the rise and the fall. We're concentrating on falling apart. We were contenders, we're throwing the fight But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe. We're concentrating on falling apart. We were contenders, we're throwing the fight But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe, in us. |
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Haunted
Posted on / Posted at 11:04 PM
it's hard to hide sadness behind laughter that quote explains it all. pretending to be happy = me. do i need a therapy , go to a psychologist or something? cause these 'thoughts' are killing me. i won't tell you what are these disturbing things. but i can't let it go. i feel so stressed i can't relax i can't enjoy every single minutes in my day when this problem is not solved. regret. that's a regret. i want to go back :'| what's wrong wif me? i'm being such a pussy. the only one i can come to is Tian-san.. and the the only one i can trust and beg for help is god. i'm just wishing for a good life.. like i used to have. i may be unhappy but i'm glad that i made many people laugh today :') glad someone's happy. it's really fun to cheer people up. but i can't cheer myself. i'm good at hiding stuff, yeah :p i'm a first class liar, jk. -my sister is playing the godfather ii for PC. i think she's not quite uncomfortable wif that. she's a rebel wif wii. -i just finished my homeeeeeeewooorrkk.. thank god peace Current mood:
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DUDE I'M BORED AS NATE RIVER
Posted on Monday, February 15, 2010 / Posted at 7:26 PM
TEN random things about me: 10. i don’t start conversations 09. i’m addicted to drawing Dx 08. i don't hate anything 07. my mood is good when it rains 06. i only use pencils 05. i text from when i wake up til i go to sleep 04. i rarely dream at my sleep :D 03. i dont watch tv. 02. there’s alot of random thoughts going on in my head all the time. 01. i get crazy nervous for haircuts xD NINE ways to win my heart: 09. someone like shore ! :D 08. be interested in music 07. play an instrument :D 06. wear skinniiiies (: 05. smart of course ;) 04. be weird 03. be immature 02. ignore my retardedness 01. talk tewww meeeee. with effort. XD EIGHT things I want to do before I die: 08. learn guitar 07. go to a rock concert 06. spend moar time wif the family. 05. get a job 04. move to other country. 03. visit the u.k. 02. have fun, be happy. 01. laugh out loud.. SEVEN things that annoy me: 07. some people at my school. 06. naughty children. 05. when people stop replying when i wanna talk to em 04. loud coughs. 03. sun. 02. bad replies 01. being tired SIX things I believe in: 06. unicorns 05. god 04. yer mawm xD 03. awg 02. doing what you want 01. god FIVE things I’m afraid of: 05. the future 04. crazy woman 03. bugs D: 02. people 01. being alone FOUR of my favorite things: 04. family. 03. mello. 02. ipod. 01. drawing. THREE things I do everyday: 03. school 02. brush my teef 01. shower TWO things I want to do right now: 02. read 01. watcha movie ONE person I want to see right now: 01. uhm. uhm. uhm. no one. you/you. yeap Labels: random |
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writing, reading, goofy, kind, awkward, selfish, emotional, arrogant, genius
Posted on Friday, February 12, 2010 / Posted at 9:35 PM
those are the words i can describe of this person. i'm sorry ok? a day without your laughs is no fun.cheer me up. i'm miserable.. anywayy,, what about a pic spam? i just changed my layout, like this one or the previous one? this one is neat and.. grey? the previous is immature, random, and.. batman. xD   PS: Somehow I found Nate River is kind of cute >_< PPS: Mihael Keehl is love, fer shure. PPPS: Samuel Foley is awkward.  PessimisticLabels: random |
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Lol i'm not lol-ing
Posted on / Posted at 3:42 PM
One million years I will say your name. I love you more than I can ever scream Yes that is from a fluff song by Black Veil Brides. I'vejust started to listen to BVB. It's a cool band :D You should try. Dea (my sis) sez her 'real person' idol is Andy Sixx. Hahaaahahaha, isn't that cool? She likes A6, man!! I can't believe it. I thought she will say A6 is ugly or something. There's this english homework to write about 'your idols'. idk who to write so i just write about Alex Gaskarth :D hoaahahahahahhaaa, Alex Gaskarth.
i think i'm on my own? people are changing, should i change too? it's so hard to find a person you can trust.. now i'll have to keep secrets by myself. how troublesome. Labels: random |
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I Type Aggressively When You're Pissing Me Off Even Though You Can't See
Posted on Monday, February 8, 2010 / Posted at 7:56 PM
Yes today is not the best day. 2 daily tests at the same daay Dx I'm soo dead, i forgot to study, but i remembered it, cause maybe it's haunting me in my sleep. so it woke me up at 3.30AM and i got up from my bed and read the books right away. i'm also kind of sleepy, i slept at 1.30AM and i accidentaly woke up at 3.30. that explains i only slept for 2 hours. oh god. i can't concentrate on anything. my brain needs to be fixed. i wish i could swap my brain with my sister's (the genius one). now it's still 7.47PM and i'm fucking tired and sleepy but i just can't sleep now, you know. just like oliver said, we will never sleep. this line always brings me up. god. do i need to get a coffee or something? Dx no one can save me, only sleep. but i can not or my mum will punch me right in the face lol. nah, my mum will probably get mad. my sleeping schedule is fucked up.fucking fucked up. these eyebags are killing me. my friends want eyebags so why don't take mine? hahhaaha. with this eyebags and pale lips, many people thought that i am sick. no i am not. look in my tired eyes. tired. ahahaha, yes tired eyes. i also showed Tian-san Black Veil Bride's frontman Andy Sixx(A6) and she said that a6 is cute :D hoahahhahaa, go google it if ya don't know. what do ya think? i also showed Paul Griffith, the owner of the bbycks clothing, she said Paul is way more cool. i haven't done my homework yet. so troublesome. i have to draw the sumatera islan on this big drawing book (a3). did i mention that i am tired? my sister is kind of a fool sometimes and asked me you should done it right now. and i was like no i am tired, ill do that later. she replied are you sure? is it easy? i said NO it's not !(making faces) goddamnit, why don't she mind her own fucking business? -,,- don't you think i should sleep? i lack sleep ok i will peace, Labels: random |
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Fuckyeah!AlexGaskarth
Posted on Friday, February 5, 2010 / Posted at 7:01 PM
This time last year, can you remember who you liked? No. What’s your favorite color? black and bluee Do you like your hair? i did, not currently though. ): Would you take someone back if they cheated on you? LOL depends Where were you at 1am this morning? right here What do you currently hear? TRS What are you going to do after this? more stupid stuufff. maybeh xD Do you change your mind a lot? yes Can you honestly say you are okay right now? noo Tell me what is on your mind? this, just this Do you like hugs? i don’t hug people, people don’t hug me. :D Honestly, are things going the way you planned? no What color shirt are you wearing? blue When was the last time you had a real smile on your face? rn. Do you think anyone has feelings for you? lol no. Is it easy to make you smile? not really :) Is there something bothering you? always Do you plan your outfits out the day before? hahahahahahahaha yes. xD Are your nails painted? lolno What are your initials? dph. fail. Where was the last place you went besides your house? mall like yeah Ever been in a cop car? no. want to. Fools die happy. The happy die young. The young die foolish. Labels: random |
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I haven't do this for a long time..
Posted on / Posted at 3:20 PM
Today my friends went to my house after school, they're Deva and Bahitah. Alya supposed to come to but she had a course today so she can't, and Ganjar too but he can't, i think that's because he's the only boy here :D So we did the project in my house, chit chat and stuff, browsing the internet, and blah blah blahs. It's kind of fun, I watch tv while they're all playing harvest moon in my laptop. Friends coming to my house, at first I didn't feel uncomfortable, and then i feel so comfortable, when they left, i feel empty and lonely. I haven' do this for a long time, to tell you the truth, i'm not a very open person to my friend, i don't like it when they come to my house.. When i did this i just remembered that i used to call my friends to come to my house, we played, we picked the flowers, ate together, and yeah. I missed my elementary school friends at Koba. I missed 'em all. They are all nice. I love them all. Yeah i'm such a shit talking these shit. :P Friends, you know you can't live without them. A best friend, a person you can trust to, i person you can come to beside your parents. A person who won't let you fall. I'm such a poor kid, i don't think i have a bestfriend, they're all just friends. I want one. I hope she can be the one. Bahitah and Deva are on their way home, I'm just worried. I hope they will be alright. current mood:
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weird crap
Posted on Thursday, February 4, 2010 / Posted at 11:27 PM
Annndd if mom's being a bitch, dad's happy! Isn't it great, I have such evil parents!-Tian-san Hey, your parents are my parents too, lol :D Labels: random |
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Alex Gaskarth and Jack Barakat BFFL
Posted on Wednesday, February 3, 2010 / Posted at 8:08 PM
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50 random things about yourself
Posted on / Posted at 7:49 PM
50 random things about yourself,1. i’m obsessed wif mello. 2. i wish time went a bit slower. 3. i like the smell of cigarettes. 4. i can’t whisper :| 5. i like taking pictures of my sis :D 6. the one band who reminds me most of my younger days is paramore. 7. i have an addiction to the internet. like yeah. 8. coffee actually makes me wanna sleep. 9. i like saving icons :/ 10. i never delete my texts Dx 11. i like weird songs. 12. i don't like strawberries. 13. i dislike school but don’t want it to be over. 14. i think skinny jeans are one of the best creation. 15. i like it when my sis gets horny. 16. razored hair > mello's hair. 17. i enjoy reading, but i rarely read 18. i'm a 1st class liar 19. oli sykes is my hero. always will be. as well as quite a few other people. 20. i don't like bangs but i want it 21. i wear my earphones when i'm in bed, but i don't listen to any song 22. i don’t watch tv. like. ever. 23. i’ve never wanted to grow up in my life. even when i was a child D: i was like nu. 24. it bothers me when hearing someone coughing (MY SISTER'S) 25. SHORE is ALWAYS in my mind 26. i get overly attached to lyrics. 27. nothing can make me smile more than my sister. 28. i can’t touch animals. i only observe them. xD 29. i think nate river is kind of cute. 30. i like britney spears. kthx :D 31. bring me the horizon is my all-time favorite band. 32. i can't cook. 33. my bangs grows bizzarely fast 34. i get angry when people touch my stuff Dx it’s nothing personal ~ 35. i think getting a papercut on your eye would be horrific D: OMG. 36. i think too muchhhh. 37. i dislike it when someone touches my hair :o 38. i used to be scared of clowns ;D 39. i get attached to bands / the members Dx 40. batman = joker. 41. i hate sleeping ): but accidentally sleep too much Dx 42. my life consists of awkward moments and obsessions. 43. I LOVE RANDOMNESS :D 44. loljks make my lifeee. 45. i wish i could have a panda as a pet 46. i wish i have hacking skills 47. i hate aoki with a burning passion 48. i love being alone. but i’m scared to be alone? lolwut. 49. blogspot is amazzzzzzingggggg. 50.  He is really good looking, Alex Gaskarth ohnoez. i failed @ this. like a boss. Labels: random |
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Himerus and Eros - Spill Canvas
Posted on / Posted at 6:40 PM
You’re captivating while evading all the questions I have for you like, "what exactly makes you tick?" When the guilt sets in tell me what are we going to do? Your tongue is wet with a top secret passion I hope I am the cause of it I'll navigate this unsturdy vessel through a soft sea pillows and blankets And I fight the urge to explore the vastness of your curves I adore You know I, I hate you No, I hate you more You know I, I love you No, I love you more Yes, it's true You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused I still somehow hope I end up with you Yes, it's true I romanticize every single thing I do especially when it comes to you I've sunken in the quicksands of love and I don't want you to rescue me Screw what my supposed friends think It's obvious they reek of jealousy It's obvious they reek of jealousy And I fight the urge to explore the vastness of your curves I adore You know I, I hate you No, I hate you more You know I, I love you No, I love you more Yes, it's true You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused I still somehow hope I end up with you Yes, it's true I romanticize every single thing I do especially when it comes to you I hope to god I mean a little more than the sounds that escape your tired 4 A.M. lips Oh-how I wish I meant a little more than a symphony of heavy breathing and the friction of hips Yes, it's true You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused I still somehow hope I end up with you Yes, it's true I romanticize every single thing I do especially when it comes to you Current mood:
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All Time Low
Posted on / Posted at 6:18 AM
ah today is school and there will be physics and biology, i guess we'll discuss the test.. what's the result? idk. i got homeworrkss, and i am dead. it's not hard, i just don't know when to do it. i'm gonna do it tonight. AND MY SLEEPING SCHEDULE WILL BE FUCKED UP AGAIN. |
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Hayden
Posted on Tuesday, February 2, 2010 / Posted at 7:16 PM
ZOMG!askarth, Hayden Nathaniel Foley New York, February 14 2013 "Even if it kills me" Labels: Hayden |
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Everything
Posted on / Posted at 3:36 PM
I discovered music when I was really young, and at this point In my life I can’t really remember my life without it. It’s something that has affected every aspect of my life. I make music references constantly when I speak but people rarely pick up on then. It’s affected the way I dress, the way I think, the way I talk, the friends I have, how I spend my time, what I spend my money on, the things I say, what I want to accomplish, how I view the world, how I view life, and overall the person I am today. without the bands I've listened to over the years, and the people in these bands who I’ve looked up to, I don’t know who or what I would be. Music has given me something to turn to when everything else seems empty. |
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Yo
Posted on / Posted at 2:46 PM
Hey guys and gals :D How ya doin!? I am reaaaally in good moods these days. You better not piss me off. Don't ruin my day. This is crazy. It's not like me at all. The real me supposed to be shy and calm and quiet and silent and arrogant (?). Nevermind, i like myself today. I felt happy. Wahahahahaha, and everytime I see my friend, i feel like i want to talk shit to 'em. ALEX GASKARTH brings my mood up. And, and, and the test from Jakarta ends todaaaay. Today is the last day. Physics Chemistry Biology. I also drew a pic where Shore wears a 'MY PEN IS BIG' shirt. Mello went what the fuck and Matt sez his shirt is funny. Shore explains that A bought the shirt for him, and them Mello yelled GET THE FUCK OUT at Samuel. I showed that pic to Aulia, Diah and Enisa, but only Aulia is the smart kitten :D Diah and Enisa went curious so I have to write it down (what it really means) and they laugh out loud. hahaha. I actually got this inspiration of drawing that pic coz I saw an icon from eljay. First i didn't figure it out (cause I'm such a good girl), but then its finally figured out (thanks to my perv mind). I'm not a big fan of OSS anymore, AWG stole his place. Idk, I'm not a fan of anything. I am only a fan of MK. I know, I'm ridiculous. What do u think of my stardoll? *winks winks* (click for the larger sizeee, maaaan)  PS: school is tomorrow PPS: hah i need to cut my bangs. -,,- current mood:  CrazyLabels: Death Note, LOL, Mello |
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